Do You Open Up To Anyone?
I have always been a very private person. I never wanted to open up and tell anyone what my feelings and thoughts were that I held so close. I am not sure if it was a fear of being judged or laughed at or whatever. I just thought I couldn’t let anyone in because I would get hurt. Now I would do this to “protect” myself but I hurt plenty of other people.
You would think that a spouse would be that person you could and should be fully open with. You choose to spend a life with someone and still not confide in them. I may have had some misguided thinking that if I did open up before we were married then they would not to be with me. I also know it is unfair to them if I am not completely open. Your spouse has to know what you think. How can they help if they don’t know?
There may also be a friend or two who you confide in. I doubt it would be on the same level as a spouse. Or can it be? I am not sure on that. A spouse should be the one held closest and be the most trusted.
Is there any positive about keeping things inside? I doubt it. But I also know how challenging it is to open up after being intensely private for so long. It is a daily work in progress for me. If I want a true relationship with anyone I want to be close to, I need to be open with them. I can’t expect them to be open to me and not reciprocate.
The door creeks open a little more…..heart rate goes up…..it will be ok.
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